Today is my would-have-been due date with the pregnancy I miscarried in July. Last night I dreamt that I gave birth. Ramona was with me & snuggled with me during the labor. I was attended by my closest mom friend, who has had three miscarriages of her own. I woke up feeling a little bit sad, but also like the dream had helped me let go of a lot of the sadness & anger I have been carrying around for the last seven months. I feel much more at peace with the possibility of Ramona being an only child, with she, Jared, & I forming a perfectly balanced triangle family.