obligatory apology for not posting for so long. i’m sure my dozens of fans were hitting their refresh buttons for weeks in fruitless anticipation. the truth of the matter is that i have been crushingly depressed (again? still?) & just in a really dark, bleak, terrible place. obvs my current anti-depressant is doing nothing more than draining $30 a month from my bank account, but my health care situation is not the greatest so i haven’t been able to do anything about it yet.
so weird, the shit i will admit on my blog, that any asshole can read, but i don’t talk about it on my locked down facebook or even to, like, jared. (granted, jared has been basically nothing more than a whirling cloud of job applications & dissertation chapters for the last few weeks. he’s applying for a job in salt lake city. this is giving me a lot of feels. luckily, he’s also applying for jobs in a lot of places that don’t make me feel dread & despair.)
i haven’t been sewing a ton, but i did make a new quilt for ramona.
yeah, each block is made to look like a little book. they were each paper-pieced, using a pattern from the book “patchwork, please!” (which has a lot of amazingly cute patterns & ideas for useful zakka projects, for children & adults). i did an alphabet theme because ramona recently got into pointing at representations of things & naming what she sees. you know, cat, wagon, truck, shirt, hedgehog, recumbent bicycle (yes, she really said that once, & yes, she’s only 22 months old), etc. so i figured she’d have a field day with all the different images on this quilt. the colored backgrounds & prints for book bindings are all just from my scrap collection. i hand-quilted the whole thing using the “big stitch” method, since i’ve never hand-quilted before & didn’t have much faith in my ability to do small stitches. plus i really did want the stitches to show. i used six different colors of thread for that, which was fun.
here’s a bit of detail & binding.
the back of the quilt is just a big piece of minky. ramona LOVES it. she pets it & says, “cat! cat!” i guess because she thinks it’s soft like a cat. she never really took to the two previous quilts i made for her, but she’s been sleeping with this one exclusively since i finished it.
yup. so that’s that. oh, i should mention that the ladies at my local quilting shop were super-opposed to me using minky for the back. they said it would never work because minky is so stretchy & it would be a nightmare to quilt it, etc etc. but guess what? it was fine. it didn’t turn out 100% perfect, but that’s because of my inexperience in hand-quilting. not because of the minky. i still like pieced quilt backs, & if i did another minky-backed quilt, i would probably also make a wider binding, because this binding was just barely wide enough to fit. but quilting it was not difficult & it didn’t seem to stretch out of shape in the process. maybe it would have been different if i’d been machine-quilting.
i started tracing the pattern pieces i need to make ramona a little hooded cape for winter (capes are good for little kids because they don’t get in the way of car seat straps like coats do), but i haven’t made much progress.
lately i have been wondering if i should just give up on this blog, since i’m not updating it as much as i had planned & i so often feel like i have nothing to say, or other priorities for my free time. i’m conflicted. i know it’s probably mostly the depression making me want to quit. when i feel this way, i get overwhelmed very easily & start looking for any responsibilities i can jettison. obviously writing crap on the internet isn’t something i HAVE to do for anyone. but it’s also maybe still kind of nice to have the outlet. i never have time to write on paper anymore, since ramona thinks all pens & notebooks belong to her, & by the time she’s napping or in bed for the night, i’m ready to just collapse on the couch with “the new yorker” & forget any possibility of generating my own independent thoughts. time will tell, i suppose.
(again, sorry for any rogue Vs where Ts should be. still cutting & pasting in my Ts since my T button doesn’t work. which is another reason i haven’t been blogging much.)